Playing Chicken with Death’s Dance

by C. Biscuit on July 11, 2010

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The following is an excerpt from the life and times of C. Biscuit, who left the confines of the cubical in March of 2010 to experience medicine firsthand, standing alongside farmers and local people working the land and living solely off the fruits of their labor. C. Biscuit has delved deeply into experiential medicine, which continues to evolve over the circadian rhythm of sunsets and sunrises, eagle cries, and the wild sighs of babbling brooks and river reeds.

So the day began rather… abruptly. Starting at 6:30AM and ending just after one, we culled 50 chickens, each of us taking turn to de-head, rinse, pluck, and then gut the animals. For me, the scene was intense: a flurry of feathers and fear, the writhing of last breaths and the holding of breath as I dismembered and cleaned all of 4 chickens. My friends cleaned about 7 to 8 chickens a piece, but I seemed to take longer, thoughtfully fingering my way through the insides, feeling the innards of warm, gooey viscera under nail and finger tip. The smell still clings to my calloused palms, and the blood still speckles my rubber boots despite my thorough washing.

This was not the first time that I had helped to kill and clean an animal. Weeks before I had watched the skinning of foxes, countless deer hide cleanings, and just two days before Justin (one of my farming friends) and I singled out the biggest bird to test for fattiness and readiness, and this first chicken killing experience was not nearly as streamlined as today; the process was scattered and took nearly three times as long. However, a lengthy and important explanation was given each step of the way so that I understood what was happening, as I was to perform this for myself in the future.

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During this first chicken butchering exposition, the upturned hen was somewhat content with the process; it’s head protruding from the narrow end of the culling cone… seeming to listen to the instructions and the fate of her form after her death. Nonetheless, this thorough demonstration did not fully prepare me the autonomic convulsions of a decapitated chicken when I was instructed to grasp its rubbery feet and push downward into the cone with considerable strength nor was I fully prepared for the stench and filth of 50 chickens that underwent the same process.

The cleanup for the cardinal carnage offered me the most unusual memory, one that I’m sure will stick with me for years to come…. the quintessential gnarly moment of my day was the sound of 50 chicken heads slurping out of a 5-gallon bucket as their beady, upturned eyes stared blankly back at me with coagulated blood encircling their necks. I can honestly say that the heave-toss-splat into the compost bin was the oddest (certainly most stomach-churning) task I’d ever performed in my life. This profound episode caused me to zero in, take notice of how inexplicably surreal my life has become after living a mere two and a half months on the farm.

All my experiences with life, farm life, and such, I had never truly understood the role of death when it came to the food we all eat. Sure, on an intellectual level, it makes sense to choose meat products resulting from a happy life and if at all possible the animals were killed in a humane manner, but on an emotional level ‘killing’ never fully sunk in.

Ahh… so this is what death feels like. This is what the full swing of life tastes like: cuteness and cuddly giving way to top-heavy notions, then to end with a strange culmination of ‘this is really happening’ for predator and prey alike. Not to say that all animals go out with a confusing bang, I know I tried my best to hold each bird that I selected with compassion and grace, keenly aware that I was sharing and in charge of its last moments. I tried my best to be tender, yet firm; cautious, yet discerning; and to tune into the experience full throttle.

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Before I lived on the farm, I never sought to kill anything, be it insect or animal; in fact, I avoided the whole notion all together, somehow maintaining ignorance of the fine line between life and death. And here I am, 31 years into this experience called life, and I’m just starting to understand a truer sense, a quiet humbleness of the contact between a healthy food source and the sustenance for my being.

Yes, it has something to do with eating, but it has more to do with an understanding of a full-circle completion. I am participating in a crescendo of cause and effect, watching the ebb and flow of vital force, and honoring my food in its life form as well as upon the dinner table. Not many Americans have an opportunity like this one, and I think it’s something that only a small gaggle of die-hard Americanos will sign up for. Regardless, the syrupy snag of playing chicken with death’s dance can shape a greater sense of respect for food and life, especially performed in context with supportive community. And, more importantly, I have gained a deeper reverence for the life force within each of us, our food sources, and the rolling tug of life’s last breath.

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The Healing Power of Animals: A Tribute to Rico

by Casey Carpenter on April 16, 2010

Home is the place where Rico dwells.

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Rico is the Carpenter family dog, an obese, green-bean loving golden retriever. With the various animals that have come and gone, Rico has been a constant. If there is any rule that has stuck with my family throughout the years, it is that Rico stays with the house. My brother’s and I have called dibs on various critters- a few interesting finds, a handful of oddly shaped dogs, a couple of kitties, and even a semi-domesticated duck that loved nothing more than to sleep on your bed snuggled up with your toes. These beings have found themselves all over Texas, but Rico remains in the Carpenter quarters.

Rico spends about 23.5 hours a day curled up on his bed. With the exception of a visit from one of the old kids, he only wakes for his peanut butter coated meds and the mailman. My beloved soul brother is in his last days. Though his giant cow body gets tired and his hips give way too easily, when we come home, we seem to spark a memory of canine youth and Rico is able to go on walks again or wake you up at 2 am to play the slimy rope game.

I was visiting home recently. My morning routine included laying with Rico on his pallet that is perpetually covered in his red hair and smells of his toxic pheromones. I curled up on his whiffy blanket with my morning coffee and stared at his graying face and cone-shaped head. He has embraced a strange, mysterious quality with his age that leaves me questioning the inner-workings of his mind. I can’t help but be left with the feeling that his beautiful dog-brain is filled with all sorts of esoteric thoughts, realizations that are beyond my understanding or that he is experiencing something profound, a kind of melancholic gentleness. Maybe it’s wisdom or sadness. Boredom, perhaps? As I lay down looking at my furry friend, I think back on his life and am warmed by the memories. Rico co-starring in a performance of the Miracle Worker, chasing police cars, Easters at Oak Lake, sick days he would lay by our side on the pallet in the living room floor. A week before Christmas he would dig his presents out of Mom’s closet. Throughout the periods of seemingly insufferable teenage angst, he was always there serving as a constant source of love and brightness that never ceased to unite our family. He flat out just makes the world a better place.

shirley-and-llamaThere is a profound warmth and incalculable gentleness that seems to exist in these inter-species companionships. It is this unique connection that makes me feel humble in the face of the big mysterious question mark of the universe. When confronted with the healing presence of an animal, I am warmed by a sense of hope for the world. Comforted and inspired, I feel suited to become the person I aspire to be and am eager to make the world the compassionate, responsive place that I yearn for. My heart softens. All can be forgiven. Love will prevail! It is quite dramatic actually.

Excusing my unabashed sentimentality, I am not alone in thinking that there is a unique healing power that accompanies an animal’s life. The strong emotional response that is elicited by animals merely serves as a testament to the all-around positive vibes that four legged beings provide. The ways in which animals participate in human healing are vast and innumerable, not to mention exciting. Equine therapy is being used in various parts of the country for adolescents struggling with eating disorders, children with autism, and individuals who have a physical disability. I’ve been hearing more and more about prison-based dog training programs. Within these programs, certain inmates are given the opportunity to train dogs that would otherwise be held captive in animal shelters. Once trained, the dogs become more adoptable, which is causing fewer stray pups to be put to sleep. A few programs are even training service dogs, which are always in high demand. In addition, the trainers are getting to experience an incredible sense of companionship. They are given an incentive to do better and learn valuable skills that can help them find jobs in the future. I’m reminded of the old adage; the only way to help yourself is to serve others. Put your energy into loving a dog and amazing things seems to happen.

pegasus.unicornThis healing isn’t exclusive to humans. I’m sure many readers have heard of Tarra and Bella at the Elephant Sanctuary in Tennessee. The story made a debut on Oprah and the touching friendship inspired a childrens’ book, written by Carol Buckley. The farm sanctuary is a retirement haven for female elephants in need of a better home. Tarra is a 36 year old Asian elephant. Bella is dog. The two of them are apparently inseparable. They eat, play, sleep and roam the land together every day. A few years ago, Bella had a spinal cord injury. Unable to walk or even wag her tail, she was stuck in the office so that she could recover. Instead of tromping around the 1800 acres of land, Tarra waited outside the office for three weeks, apparently concerned about her missing comrade. One day a faculty member carried Bella out to the balcony to see her concerned friend. The sight of her old partner in crime made her tail finally begin to wag. She was carried down to meet Tarra who was squealing in excitement and proceeded to pet her furry friend on the belly with her enormous elephant foot. They met like this every day until she healed.

When we become heavily absorbed in the busy-bodied lives we lead, it may be easy for us to lose sight of our potential. With all the corruption and sadness that we encounter every time we turn on the news, it becomes difficult to face the day with a sense of hope and excitement. For this disheartening predicament I recommend my most favorite remedy: animal time. Whether it is taking your pup on a W-A-L-K or napping with some kitties, I’m certain your day will look a little brighter. I know that anytime I become disenchanted with the current happenings, I can curl up with an old furry friend and be grounded in goodness of the world and in all the potential that merely believing in goodness creates. Thanks again, Rico. It’s been a blast.

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A Few Health Reforming Thoughts for Bob Dylan

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(Straight from the horse’s mouth: An open C. Biscuit letter for singer, song-writer & musician, Bob Dylan)
Mr. Bob Dylan,
Now, I know you’re not likely to come across my meandering thoughts on your own, but it feels right to put them out there… into the ether of the internet, thinkin’ that somewhere, someone oughta be hearing these [...]

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What Can One Person Do?

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Those of us who recognize that humankind is at a crossroads, and that we must make substantive changes now if we are to survive as civilized creatures, are often faced with doubt, wondering, “What can one person do?”

We have all heard the quote from Margaret Mead about “a small group of thoughtful, committed people” being [...]

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